Quick Thought

I feel like Benjamin Button, only faster, and not really. All of a sudden I feel like I am not really my age. It's strange. I see girls that are married/prego and I have this overwhelming sense that I cannot overcome. The stream of thought in my head goes something like this -

 "what?!? she's married (or prego, both apply.) whoa, she looks soooo young. how can this be? how can she possibly be only __ years old? when did that happen? yikes. well, i guess i'm only 19, wait a sec . . . how can i be judging her, she's 2 years older than me, still, she looks so young. how did she get married so quickly. wow, she's been through more than me. she goes home to a husband - a HUSAND, mind. weird. a real husband. how can that be?! how far away is marriage for me, i mean if she's married i . . . never mind, not gonna think about it. but still, she seems really really young." 

Yeah, ridiculous right? I mean come on, I am a mere nineteen years of age, and yet I feel the obligation to judge those that felt it was their time to go. Isn't it supposed to be that middle-aged women who have already been married and prego before are allowed such wise and perspective-driven comments? Apparently not. It's strange, and it happens a lot. Not to everyone, no, but to quite a few. Interesting. So apparently Ben Button and I don't really have much in common, except that we both feel we're not quite on the same level as other people who were born around the same time we were. Oh well, I am so cool with being on the same level as bp.