i've been singing more

you have no idea what comfort this brings me. My whole life has been spent constantly singing a tune. When I was 14 years old I got the "singing sam" award at girl's camp and it had this little dog with his nose up the air singing to the heavens. That was always me. And another time at a retreat I got made fun of for singing right out loud in the shower. That's just me.

But then I was quiet.

Perhaps it was the close quarters of the dorms that first brought it on, and then that wore off. And then this summer, I think I was just so stressed and meek that I couldn't find the heart to sing. But I've needed it. Singing just does something to me, it lifts my spirits and makes me feel quite good about myself, at least when it sounds good. The ol' familiar tunes that could always be found on my lips, that somehow drifted for away for a while have returned. I am so glad. I love to raise my voice and sing while I do the dishes, or while I'm at work, or while I'm biking fiercely to work to make up for having woken up a half hour late. Yup, I sing then too.

Sometimes humming just doesn't cut it, I have to let the cap off and let my little voice soar . . . just so long as no one can hear me.