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Well, I have one year before my life completely flips around, and I am sincerely hoping that it will be one of magical thinking. Frankly I need it. So this is my second blog for myself. I think that initially I wanted my blog to be something that it will never be. I don't really know what that is, but yeah, it isn't. There were also personal issues about wanting people to praise and revere my blog, but that is never going to happen (okay, very unlikely.) I don't really want anybody to read my blog, except me of course, and there is something tantalizingly appealing about writing to the abyss, and no one will say anything back. Granted, I love writing in a notebook, but nowadays, it might just be easier to preserve it digitally.
And so, endless abyss, I have a lot to say, I just hope that someday I'll get some of it out.